For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11
As most know but probably not many, Devan lost his job at Dish Network in mid June and has been applying every day since. At first we were very optimistic and knew God had a better plan for us. After a few weeks of no call backs of either yes we want an interview or no, we both became very discouraged and wondered why God was allowing it to be so difficult to get a job. We understand the economy is bad and not many people are hiring but yet laying off, we just couldn't understand that even something as simple as fast food wasn't calling back.
After a couple of months (yes I said months) he was finally getting call backs for interviews. At this point we were so excited and of course praying constantly the entire time. After the interviews, Devan was told that he would hear back within the week. A week would go by so Dev would call and either leave a voice mail for them or they would answer and tell him they are still deciding. After about 5 or 6 of those you tend to fall back in to getting discouraged and wondering where God is at that point. We still were trusting that obviously God has something even better. Even though every interview opportunity we thought, 'This HAS to be it! How can God have anything better then THIS?' it would fall through and not work out. "Why God?? Why? We have a little girl and a baby on the way...what are you trying to teach us through this"
Pastor Ryan preached on praying boldly and I tried really hard to do just that, and that's what we (I) were doing. I know for myself I began to struggle with even praying about it because I felt like every prayer for every interview was the same. It's like I didn't know how to pray anymore.
We have such an awesome God who is so kind and loving to send people our way to encourage us and point us back to truth. We have not had an income for 5 months and by Gods Grace we have been able to pay our bills, which means we've been able to keep our vehicle and all of our stuff in storage. You would think in a situation like this, your car would be repossessed or your storage would be auctioned out cause you couldn't pay. The first month Dev didn't have a job was the only month we were withdrawn by a lot in our bank account and at that point we were trusting that God had a better plan and it was in his hands. God has provided in so many ways to keep us from dealing with that again. He is just so amazing.
This was always a great reminder for me when I was struggling with doubt, fear, anxiety etc. . . God is so much bigger then I am and I only see right now when God sees the BIG picture (5 months ahead). God knew that I would need Devan's help and support after the baby came and that was so kind because 4 weeks after Dublin was born God provided a job for Devan working full time. Dev and I never thought it would be so long before he found another job but by God's grace and love here we are and we are so thankful. What a sovereign God we serve!!!
Give me Jesus. Give me Jesus. You can have all this world, just give me Jesus!!
